Fear Of Drowning

Coward.

A miniscule word of only six letters,

Yet it engulfs my entire being.

Like a roiling pool of black tar,

I drown in its merciless depths,

The ghastly, thick liquid

Forcing its way down my throat,

Suffocating me of my air of confidence.

And try as I might

To fight back this menace,

My body and mind give in to its embrace,

And I lie suspended in the void of black.

But my heart still beats its rhythm,

And as long as it continues pulsing,

There is still hope,

That I can pull myself free

From this prison that holds me down.

This dense black sea of fear.

Tell Me

What’s wrong with me?

What about me is so horrible,

That you must avoid me?

Am I annoying?

Do I creep you out?

Am I so grotesque,

That even talking to me makes you want hi-tail it and run?

Please, tell me what it is!

Because living without knowing why

Makes my life more confusing than it needs to be.

Tell me, so I don’t have to waste my time chasing after you,

Only to come to a horrible disappointment.

Tell me, so I can try to be less of a burden to you.

Or, if you’d prefer it more, stay out of your way.

But you need to let know,

So I can move on with my life

And leave you be.

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Note: Punctuation in poetry isn't my strong suit so deal with it. lol :P

Welcome!

This blog is basically for my benefit only. But if people want to follow, it's fine with me. Though I highly doubt anyone will. No one looks at these blogs anyway.... >.> The content will mainly consist of poetry (probably most being free verse) or rants to help me vent.